10 Days

i just have 10 days left. u know how it feels like when u have to go n leave sumthing that u really want to own forever?

i have so much to say about New Zealand and  my life here but i dont know why, i just dont feel like i can spill everything in here.

frankly speaking, i am sad. so sad. i'm so much in love with new zealand. it makes me be a different person. im totally changed. i'm no longer an old me.  im a new someone.

without realizing it, i have found myself, my real self, which i might not be able to find anywhere else, if i hv never stepped out of my country. i know what to be, i know what i want now. but i dont know when i can make it becomes a reality.

time flies, my two years becomes 10 days now n im going back to my home country soon. im gonna miss new zealand. even if i ever come back here again, everything is not gonna be same. yes, life only happens once so do some opportunities.

God, give me strength to live this 10days to the fullest. :'(

:: Waiting ::

I've been waiting for snow. like ages. I'v been carrying this feeling since i came back from South Island. n now, knowing that some parts of North Island are getting snow but not in my place, i feel sad.

i wanna see snow. wouldn't it come here.. before i leave this place forever?

will God listen to my prayer?

im sick of u!

crying a lot lately. im growing up mybe. like more n more pain comes n hurt me, i know that the way how people become stronger. i shud be strong. let them do dat. let them b happy with dat. im sick of YOU!

...

to be true, 

my heart aches.

:'(