this was what had happened in my 5T3 class and this was only one of the examples that i have in 'my collection'. it happens on the daily basis, can u imagine? 


Teaching reflection- year5 english class.
Topic : Where do you live?
Theme: world of self, family n friends.
Issue: the most tiring n challenging lesson.

Me: okay boys, now i want u to draw you own family tree. (distributing handouts with a blank family tree diagram to the students). Alrite, u may start now.

*suddnly all the boys were looking for a place to hide.some sat at the corner of the cla

ssroom.some hid under the table*

Me : okay!okay! What's happening now? Why arent u sit properly?shaddiq! afif! isqandar! yasir!!
S1: teacherrr!! Alaaaa.kite tak nak la wat bnde ni teacher (covering his family tree diagram).
Me: why?
S1: alaaaa.nti diorg nmpak.nti diorg kutuk nama bapak n mak saya.
S2: aah teacher.nti diorg ktuk nama atuk sy.
Me: *dalam hati* lol!!! No.wonder sume mcm cacing kpanasan.cmne laaaa ak boleh lupe diorg neh suke brgaduh sbb main ejek nama bapak.hehe.tringat zaman skolah dlu.haish.
Me: ok2! Its alrite.you just draw it quickly n submit it to me ok.whoever tries to mock or tease their friends, i'll punish u.
S2: teacher2! Jgn tnjuk kat diorg taw kertas sy.
Me:ok2.i wont.dnt worry k.
S3: Misssss!! Missss! (shouting from the back)
Me: yes?
S3: xingat laaaa name atuk nenek kite sume.
S4: sy pon xigt.
Me: pulak.hmm.ok.u just put X if u really dnt knw their names.
Me:hhmm.eh, y aren't u doing ur work?
S5: teacher, sy xtw la teacher nak tulis ape.sume sy xknal.
Me: *dalam hati* (oh my! How cn i forget that he's from Rumah Barkat *orphanage*) Hmm.its ok, tulis nama pnjaga kt rumah brkat tu je.yg kt bwh ni tulis nama awak sorang je ok.
S5 :okay! (looked so happy) -weird.
S6: teacherrrrr! Camne nk tulis ni? Kalau sy ada dua mak?
Me: err.just write ur own mum's n siblings' names.yg lagi satu tu, no need.
S6:ok.
S7: teacher! Sy pon ada 2 mak dgn 2 ayah teacher.sy da tulis sume.hihihi. (happily showed his diagram)
Me: eh! U should only write the names of the people who u are living with now, my dear.
S7: alaaaa.xpela teacher.sy malas nk pdam.
Me:hmmm.
S8: teacher!
Me: iyeee.. ( xlarat nk layan)
S8: ada org menangis kt blakang.diorg ejek nama mak dia.
Me: haih!
S9: teacher.teacher nmpak gemok la *tibe2*
Me: -_____-'
S10: teacher sy xigt nama mak saya.
Me:oh my! Jgn mngadelah.that cant b true.
S10:ala teacher..nama mak sy xde 'ungku' macam nama mak diaaaa...
Me: aihhh.ok dahhh! Submit ur work now. (macam2lahhh!!pening!)
Students: teacher! Sorok2 teacher jgn bgi sape2 tgk.
Me: i know.i know. *sigh*.okay, i'v to go now.
Students: teacherrrrr! Ingt taw! Jnji jgn tnjuk kat org lain!
Me: yeahhh.okay! Promise! Thank u class!
Students: thank you miss nazzzzz!

*** penatnye la haiiii jdi cikgu! =____='

** UNFORGETTABLE! **

| need not |

it has been months! n i could not believe it that the 'months' that i should pass patiently is reaching its end. i was super duper bz with practicum that i had no time for myself. not even hv any time to make a quick visit to my own blog. i didnt remmber what was the last thing that iv written here.i hv devoted all my times for these few months to practicum and to my life as a new inexperienced English teacher in STAR 1. u see, i did not even have time to tell that im actually doing my practicum at STAR 1, a boys' school. terrific but awesome moments too.

so, my life has changed bit by bit.  I have lived and still living a new way of life where i take risk *lots of risks* in everything that im doing. i challenged myself by making a big decision to move on. like really2 move on n live with it. live my life with the feeling hidden inside but smile and act like nothing happens coz thats how it shud be in the future. Untill i get used to it n really have actually let go- then i know that im absolutely fine. ehem. *cough* i am fine now-seriously. but at times, i do remmber. n when we talk, n decide, n retell the stories, reminiscing the moments, i still cry.why? coz all those are too sweet to be forgotten. i cant forgive myself for being too weak n fragile,but i believe, time will heal us. and someone in the future will give us strength to accept that our life meant for something else. yes, a someone-  his  n mine.

those time ( few weeks or months ago), i did try to open my heart n let someone else to enter. but i just realised, i need not a special someone. never. i just need a good friend to be around coz i dont want to have any commitment. i dont wanna get involved with any heart n feeling stuff anymore (at this moment) but it just too hard to be avoided. even if i am ok, like seriously feeling-less n ok, the other party isn't. and it is - uncontrollable. so i end up breaking up so many hearts n i cry. coz i hate it when i hurt people who is being nice to me, and when i couldnt repay all the 'kindness' that they hv done. i bet i'll get a punishment. life has karma, so i'll be hurt too. that thought really freaks me out but i wish, instead of being punished, i'll find a right one who will love me endlessly regardless all my weaknesses. 

... and so, to conclude , im really happy with my life now. and i'm fine to live it just like this. but i hope n pray that i wont hurt anyone else more after this. i have had it enough. and to u, whoever has been there to spare me some great times but ended up being hurt badly, im really2 sorry. i wished to be a good friend, i wished to make everyone happy, but im just a normal human being, i cant satisfy everyone. im just a small girl with nothing but a heart - a heart that is still learning n struggling to 'breath' the way it used to be, to recover from a damage and to take its own time to be able to consider it never knows. I leave it to ALLAH to decide fo the best while i'll keep praying....

a moment that leads to a new beginning of life. may ALLAH ease.

10 Days

i just have 10 days left. u know how it feels like when u have to go n leave sumthing that u really want to own forever?

i have so much to say about New Zealand and  my life here but i dont know why, i just dont feel like i can spill everything in here.

frankly speaking, i am sad. so sad. i'm so much in love with new zealand. it makes me be a different person. im totally changed. i'm no longer an old me.  im a new someone.

without realizing it, i have found myself, my real self, which i might not be able to find anywhere else, if i hv never stepped out of my country. i know what to be, i know what i want now. but i dont know when i can make it becomes a reality.

time flies, my two years becomes 10 days now n im going back to my home country soon. im gonna miss new zealand. even if i ever come back here again, everything is not gonna be same. yes, life only happens once so do some opportunities.

God, give me strength to live this 10days to the fullest. :'(

practicum, gym & mentoring - all in one

Practicum finished 4 days ago. i guess i only write about practicum when it has number 4 in it. :p
my previous post was about practicum and it was written 4 days after it began n now i talked bout it again, 4 days after it ended.


i'm so relieved that the practicum has ended and i finished it with a good feeling. i miss the school and kids now. we took picture together, me, Chander and the kids. but i couldnt put it in here coz their faces are no allowed to be put on the net.


i'm so much relieved coz finally, i have started going to gym again since 2 days ago. hmm. but, i dont manage to go today coz i just came back from mentoring. i got new mentee today. He is Jason. I would say he is a white, but he is not exactly a kiwi New Zealand. he is a mix of lotsa ethnic. from England to Philippines. He is a nice boy, funny and enjoy laughing a lot. he is good.

will put some pic of him later. till then. :))

:: HUDSONIANs' Open House ::

 Happy Eid Mubarak everyone from Gadis-gadis Hudson Brown!!

it was a very fantastic experience to be a host for our Hari Raya open house. i just wish ALLAH will bless this beautiful days of Syawal. without family members with us, we are trying our best to make this Hari Raya become the most memorable in our life. and yes, it is the most memorable one!

Gadis-gadis from Railway. Nirro, Fayizah and Vilo. enjoy the food girls?? we had lotsa food. can believe that we really have cooked those nasi lemak, bubur kacang hitam, nasi himpit n kuah kacang, cakes, laksa... etc. cant name all!

Railway Boys. look at Hafiz' s and Zaza's Hari Raya new hair style. Mohawk  Guys. but Muaz  was too loyal with his long natural straight n brownish hair.

MARA girls. on diet?

Shu with her sweetheart. untunglaaaa~ :p

AFIQ. came back for his graduation. happy becoming an engineer Mister! 

Look at those red cheeks of mine. there were stories behind it. first, i do have red cheeks since i came here (coz of the weather but never have been that red!) second, i'v actually blended the dried chilies  for cooking and poured the mixture into a bowl when few drops of it splashed on my face. then i wiped it off with my hand which also had few drops of chillies mixture. thanks Naz for being so clever and put a natural blusher on ur  own face! it was hot and hurting! GOOD JOB! TT____TT 

a lil bit of personal contribution. i made KEK BATIK for the guest. hope they like it.
:))

LALA! my gym partner. LALA said we shud take photos together coz she'll be missing me soon. ;'(

i'll be missing u too LALA

us, the HUDSONIANS with Sheryll. we gonna miss u Sheryll. the awesomest lecturer/tutor/mum i ever had found in this universe. take  care Sheryll. thanks for being with us. :')

Sheryll's . thanks you!

event ended at 11pm and i had like a crazy woman with red red cheeks. warghhhhhh!

Happy Eid Mubarak everyone n have a good night sleep!

:)

:: Beautiful Heart ::

i have started my practicum  since 4 days ago. all went well and i think i like my class where i  have been assigned to work in. The classroom teacher whose name is Chander, is a really nice person. she is Fijian, and she is really hardworking and committed. i think everyone in the school are really good to us , they welcome us really well hence we never feel like an outsider. i feel good to be at school tho i dont really have much time talking to most teachers. i didn't really teach this week, i just did some observation n helped Chander with few things that i think i am able to do. 

New Zealand school is always like the way it should be but this one is way cooler than other school. the teachers are cool, the students do not need to wear uniform, they have 3-times recess hour, and this school is really a good example of multicultural school.

from day to day, im getting used with the school, the class, the students, the system, the time management and the feeling of being a teacher. all staff in there are kind and nice. sometimes, i just wonder. how these people can be so kind, understanding n helpful? why can't people in Malaysia be like them?

this morning when i was waiting for the bus, i saw lotsa high school students waiting for the bus too. the were all Maori n pacific islander. the guys stood near to the point where the bus will stop, n me n Hasrul were at the back, almost buried in the crowd. as usual, we need to queue up before we can get into the bus. to my surprise, when the bus stopped, none of these Maori boys went into the bus. they instead backed off and let me go first. i wondered why they did that but without thinking too much, i just went up into the bus, tagged on my Hop Card and took a seat. after all the public people ( elderly, worker, etc) have had their seats, then the students came in- one by one, with their very own style. some were singing, some were teasing each other. finished taking all the passenger ,the bus then went on.at the next stop, the bus stopped and took few more passengers. there were no empty seat at that time but few Maori students  stood up from their seats and gave away the seats to the new passengers. then after that, every time the bus stopped to pick up more passengers, the other maori guys will give up their seats to the new comers and they wouldn't mind to stand up in the bus along the way to their school. i was so touched to see this. i just knew that students in new zealand really have a good attitude. The boys being a man, did a little thing yet means a lot. i bet all the older people here used to practice the same attitude when they were young so that is why the youngsters can follow it without any complaints. i remember when i went to Maori village last semester, Gazza told us that Maori people really protect their women. so this morning, i felt myself was one of their women and i felt special, so did the other people who were given a seat in the bus.

this evening , another one thing happened to me. the school finished at 3pm but as usual i'll talk to Chander about the school system and teaching stuff. today i stayed with her a bit longer coz she showed me how she used the curriculum booklet to plan her teaching. it was 1515pm when i went down from the classroom to go to staff room coz i wanted to use the nearby toilet before going back home. after that i went straightaway to the main door at office lobby to find my mates who actually have been waiting for me outside the school area. i walked pass by the information counter and i saw Mike. he greeted me and told that he saw my friends are waiting for me.  i thanked him for that and suddenly he  quickly went into the store and took out an umbrella. he said i can borrow his umbrella coz it was raining heavily outside. i told him i'll be fine and i wont need the umbrella coz we gonna take a bus and i wont get wet. but at the end, we really walked back home and luckily, we had enough umbrellas. Mike also a very nice person . really. he is rich with smile , has a sweet face , friendly , funny and really helpful. i think people here are really nice. i wish i am also one of these nice persons. 

i dont why.. but im feeling so sad to accept the truth that im gonna leave this country soon. :'(

:: Practicum ::

tomorrow will be the first day of practicum in New Zealand. I'll be teaching Year 5 or year 6 class at Freemans Bay Primary School. the whole practicum session is 2 weeks but i dont know why, i feel like it is such a long journey to go. I really hope it will be exciting and thus, no dreadful 2 weeks will be recorded in my lifetime story.

if i ask myself what im feeling right now, i would say i have uncertain feeling. first, i dont feel anything coz now im suffering of monthly girl's sickness which has killed all the other feelings that i might have including my appetite to eat. i am moody and emo for  no reason, n laziness cant be denied. therefore, im not even bother to prepare clothes or any stuff to bring tomorrow. what a bad teacher i am.

i dont know if i am excited. i am nervous coz i'l be teaching the native speakers of english. i keep thinking, what should i say,how should i act in front of the kids, can they understand me n my instructions, will everything be ok? it's good to know that we'll be teaching only in the second week  of practicum but who knows, somebody might ask us to start earlier. now i just realised that i forgot the teacher's name who i will be working with. -_____-'

sigh! im so feeling-less now. im worried if im not feeling totally ok n well to go to the school. i hope the pain will go away and i'll be fine. i hope seeing kids will help me to feel better tomorrow and i hope everyone in the school can accept us really well. the school is 20 mins away from my house but the process of walking to Britomart will take app.15 minutes and to wait for the bus might take 10mins. then to reach the school it will take 10mins. i definitely need to wake up early and start to walk out of my house at 715am. 

luckily we have gone to the school 2 days ago to see how long it takes to reach there n what is the correct bus to use. the school is pretty near actually, it just the process of reaching the school is time consuming. we WALKED back home after had a look at the school area and WALKING is cool as! on the way back home, we randomly did some window shopping at Queen Street. Tym treated us with fried chicken n fries for break fasting. here we go. some snaps for the day :)

  syafiq said this hat looks suitable for tym so i simply put it on coz i wonder why he got such idea? Tym didnt even bother to try it on

ohhh! now i know. he wanted to try that one but he needed  somebody to try it first, so he can join 'em later eh! noty eiy? haha.

kidding! no offence buddy! :D

||Girls' Day Out!! ||

Larry Crowne.

Huh!!

what a boring movie! we went to watch this movie last Saturday, me and Christine. the reason why we watched this movie was:  Christine won two tixs for free. so we just need to spend a lil bit of time to make use of the free tixs. i dont remember how she has won that tixs but it was when she entered one competition which needed her to send a text message to one special number from i-dont-know-what company.

well, overall comment : i wont recommend this movie to any of my friends coz i think its only suitable for old people. and it is.. lame!

but, in spite of the boring-ness, i guess Christine enjoyed the choco top ice cream that she got for free - it came together with the free tix. full package. n i ate mine after berbuka. well, sempat mintak org kaunter simpankan and before balik gi amek n then jalan balik rumah sambil bawak ice cream tu. haha

anyway, spending time outside with a girlfriend is one of the awesome-st things to do. it might be less awesome when it is Ramadhan coz we cant spare time for eating but we stil can gossip.

so yeah!here we are! camwhoring in da washroom before we went into theater room 5. :D

it's not that clear coz i captured this photo using my ipod.

i told Christine she look like a tomboy. haha O.O

Proud to be an Asian. well Malaysian n Korean can get well together. :))

im waiting for Friday now. we will get some ice cream from Giapo. and for this reason, we are now saving a dollar and 10 cent each day so that on Friday we'll be able to get a cone of cheese cake + choco hazelnut ice cream. weehaaawww!!! 

\(^^)/

:: MATES - Home Stay Home ::

I think i never had updated anything bout my mentoring program since i posted the last one few weeks ago. It doesnt mean that i got nothing special to talk about, it just a matter of time. sometimes i dont really have time to update my blog everyday. sometimes i am soooo lazy to click the blogger  button on the bookmark bar. well, for me every mentoring session we had in Papakura is awesome. and i am personally think, last week session was the most productive session.

week 3

it wasn't exactly week 3. we kept skipping the week due to school holiday and other things. so this one has become the third week i met Paris, my mentee. i prepared a handout for her. my handout's title is 'My Goals'. i asked her to fill in the handout, there were  4columns in total : my goals for today, this year, in the future and the last on , the goals that i'v already achieved. and for each time for the goals, i asked her to write 'why is it important' and ' how to achieve it'. we did the task together. she answered all the questions and that helped me to know her better. i'll update her answer letter since she forgot to bring the handout  lastweek. i remember her answers, but it is too much to write, so i'll pun it in a new entry. the purpose of this task WAS, to help her to be clear with her aims in life. i told her, this task is important to help she realizes that if one has a dream, it is always possible to achieve the dream as long as they know how to achieve  it n willing to put some efforts in achieving. I asked her to look back at her already achieved dreams. she has already got few dreams came true. therefore, she definitely able to achieve more. :))

week 4

This is the most tiring week ever. EVER! i was fasting and  we were actually played a game called  'home stay home'. in this game,the opponent group will need to chase out and caught another group's members. the people who are not the catcher will have to run and run and run to safe their lives. if they are being tagged by the catchers, they will die. so whoever manages to get home and says ' home stay home' without being tagged, they are safe. we devided urself into two groups, and it was a fight between mentee and mentor group. The kiddos was so excited to beat us. we got to be the first group who be the victim, and the kiddos were the catchers. they ran so fast, and they caught us all. we ran not too fast, but we managed to catch 'em all too. the second round of the game, i managed to get home and that made we won the game in total. ( after for times of running and hiding. i was almost died)  ^^''

Ann called us  when it was already 415pm and asked to stop play. i guess she wanted us to do something more beneficial for the students. haha. it seemed like they didnt wanna stop but we had to. the activities afterward were boring.we played scrabble and word games only. among all things happened on that that, i remember most about Xavier, a boy who is a mentee to Dzaf. he sounded so funny when we have already been in group and ready to run for the HSH game. he said to the girls in mentee's group,' well, dont worry. it is easy!  leave it to me ladies! i will finish them all' and we all laughed after that. he ensured the girls in the group that they gonna win the game but at the end , they didnt and Xavier was so frustrated. hehe. i like his confidence anyway. :p and i know, this week he will be waiting to play Home Stay Home again. and I.. im not gonna run anymore. :))

Paris and Me :)

:: SNOW in AUCKLAND !! ::

finally!!
yey! yey! yey!
Thank you ALLAH!!
alhamdulillahhhhh.

ALLAH really listened to my prayer.
ALLAH turunkn snow kt Auckland hri ni. sesuatu yg xdijangka. kali terakhir snow turun di bumi auckland adalah pada 1939. da berpuluh2 tahun yang lalu. n sekarang, snow datang lagi ke sini. ni la namanya salji rahmat yg datang masa Ramadhan. alhamdulillah.

xtw nak cakap cmne perasaan ni. ALLAH sangat baik. da bape lame da berangan nak men snow. nk rse snow fall. bile denger Welly ada snow, mmg sayu sangat. tadi tengah duk sedih2 sorang2 dalam bilik,tiba2 hati kecil berkata..jenguk la keluar tingkap. mgkin snow akan mendengar kite memanggilnye. tpi buat bodo je. tengah sedih kan. tibe2 dengar bunyi hujan. dalam hati .. 'takpe la, tengok hujan pon takpe'

tibe2 nampak putih2. snow kah? snow kah?? berlari2 turun ke bawah , kat balkoni. and yessss... it is snow!! teruja sangat. tapi snow turun 10 minit je. da cair lepas tu. xtaw esok lusa or bile2 yg len, ada xlagi snow. harap2 ada.

curik blanket merah ton sebab nk 'tangkap' snow. hihi

time ni da kurang lebat, so snow da kurang. sobb~~

mula2 ingatkn hail je. confuse punya confuse, lama2 baru confident ni snow. bukan snow flakes tpi sleet. comel kan bulat2.

time ni snow da mkin kurang so hanya beberapa bintik snow je tertangkap ditangan. huhu

sayang nak buang snow ni. huk2

yg jatuh atas2 krusi xcair cpt sgt.

 comel je. hmmmm

ok dahh. snow da benti falling da mse ni

and matahari pun kuar. cepat sgt. mmg ALLAH pinjamkan anugerah ni sekejap tu buat kami menikmati dan menghargainye.

kata org, mungkin ALLAH makbulkan doa2 org yg berpuasa di bumi Auckland ni. mungkin. terima kasih ALLAH.

:))

:: Online Learning yg macam " WHAT????" ::

i seldom have this feeling. a feeling of relaxing while i'm actually have a heap of works to finish. this week we were needed to deal with our first assignment of online learning course namely Educ384. i hated it before for the fact that we were needed to write a 600 words essay regarding the use of ICT in education and later, we were asked to critique on 3 essays from other members in the group. it wasn't stopped there i mind you, we actually had to respond. yup, respond back to the critiques that people left for u! every people should get minimum 3 critiques but it happened that i got 5 in total. i was like.. 'WHATTT????'. *sigh, sigh, sigh * and the requirement was, we were needed to respond to every single comment that people have made for our essays. huwaaa. but u know what, been working since last two nights, i didnt really felt burdened with this work. i totally cant believe it that i have replied everyone's comment with full of my heart and worked in soooo relax mode. i finally completed my work at 11pm 13th august, an hour before the submission is closed. oh, i feel everyone in the group loves me, that's y they left me with lotsa comments to be replied. so i left 'em an appreciation letter. hehe.

. 

oh what does it tell me? i got the most comments to reply. ughhh. its ok. they love me. :p

and i could not believe i have been reading a lot along these 3 days and writing a lot too. so the products were :

Mai actually was the first respondent for my essay. she wrote quite long which meant she spent lots of time reading n talking bout my essay. thanks to her. so i showed an appreciation to her. i wrote to her back in purple. only her. haha. sweet kan? :p

then i got critiqued by 4 more members. Shud, Hafiz, Saifful and Farisha. i replied each comment based on what they said not by copying and pasting from previous comment. oh God, i just realised that i really devoted to this task. well, im satisfied.

still cant believe that i have written that long. the pictures were minus the writing that i'v made for 3 other people in the group. i remembered i hv written a very long critique on Farisha's essay. i dont know why, but since i'v been working so hard making time enough for me to do our bisnes in bazar.kecil.kita and fighting to complete assignments at the same time, i hv become so wise with time.im more organised and prepared. 

a good improvement!! :)

:: Berbuka yg. SIhat ::

Hari ni dapat berbuka dengan menu2 sihat. 'sihat' secara literal ye, sebab dah berapa hari makan ikut dan je. busy la katekan. hari ni semangat berbuka lebey cket. sambil2 tengok youtube (sebab si Ton xhabes2 stalk korean artis yg. buat plastik surgery. kekeke) , tertengok la jugak resepi2 online ni. konon2 teringin nak makan kuih badak berendam, tpi sudahnye dia hilang berlari turun bawah masak ayam goreng  berlada. hape la punye perangai?perangai xpernah nak elok! hik3.

panggil mira datang rumah berbuka. so masak lauk lebey. Special Snapper masak halia. slurrppp. ema bagi contribution jugak. popia sayur. sambil2 tunggu ikan defrost tadi sempat jugak buat cheese kek. tunggu sjuk baru sedap nak ngap! hari ni xde bisnes sebab xnak penat. nak buat assignment. esok jadi busy bussinesswoman lagi. 

jom layan food! 

 lupe nak mention, air sirap mane boleh lupe. tak Malaysian la beb! hehe. selamat berbuka!! :))

:: cucur badak meletop ::

Hari Kedua Bazar.Kecil.Kita :

ton kata cucur badak ni meletop2 kat Auckland. at this moment, she is talking to her mum n bru tdi dia menganjing cakap kt mak dia, " cucur badak kak naz meletop2 kat Auckland ni". hampessss. haha. alhamdulillah Allah bagi rezeki dengan cara macam ni, bagi bakat dalam memasak. terima kasih ALLAH. sayang ALLAH! chupppsss! * boleh ke cakap cmtu kat ALLAH? hehe *

:: Anugerah ALLAH ::

malam ni mood 'dancing floor' on. heh. jgn fikir enggak2 ok. cume terasa seronok dan bebas seperti burung di awanan sebab da anta assignment 384. fuhhhh! wlopon pasti ada cacat celanya, tpi sempat disiapkn dalam mse 2 jam. dasat x dasat? sejak jadi makcik akak cantik kuih ni , hari2 pun bz. tenaga ATP memang terbuang dengan effective n active nye.nak kejar masa buat assignment, nak buat kuih, nak masak lauk.. sumelahh. tpi xpe, sendiri yg offer diri. 

ok xmo cakap pasal kerja da. nk cakap hari ni rasa nak gi karoke tpi..ongkosnye illek! so duk diam, tutup mulut ( buka tuk bernyanyi2 kecil dibenarkan). haaa. ni la evergreen paling best n still popular meletop2 smapai hari ni n kompem x pernah miss bile tiap kali gi karok.

cube cakap sape xsuke lagu ni? ni buat solo performance mmg terbaik.

okay, dan ini pula. anugerah ALLAH yg pling bermakna dalam hidup. cinta sangat kt snow n tempat ni. sobbb~~~ berdoa semoga sejarah ni berulang lagi. 

okeh. dah. mau tido. tunggu bulan pose habes , nti bru boleh gi karok dan berjoget2 kt situ. sekarang, terawih time dulu. :))

:: I'm Busy!! I'm Happy! ::

I'm shifting today, in a sense of changing my way of writing. im aware, i didnt write much bout my academic things. so today im gonna do so, no more rambling over heart & feeling thingy nor holiday. * anyway, talking bout holiday is always cooolllllll  . hikkkssss. *

i got four months left. and that  means.. SAD! but i wanna cherish this critical moment with something that i wont forget for the rest of my life. so i took a step. a very little tiny one when i was freaking tensed to crack my head for science assignment in Brisbane. haha. i took a rest n there happened that i applied for mentoring program. the program's name is MATES. and i got my mentee last month. her name is Paris. She is twelve. nice, active, friendly , beautiful. i think she is good. this program is not an easy task to do i wud say. yes, i might need to check n help her out with the homework, but there is something more important i should be able to do. gain her trust, be her friend, get to know her interests n make her trust me as someone who can always be there for her...to get her emotional,social and cognitive development grow well. this mean a RELATIONSHIP. sooner, i need to meet her family and again, to built a trust n be in a good RELATIONSHIP with them. 

i think i have a good relationship with my mentee so far. i can feel that we actually had a good kickoff. we can talk to each other n i see her willing to be cooperative. i feel grateful. i learnt new thing without im realising it.RELATIONSHIP... it wont happen if there's no cooperative between two parties. it needs trust n toleration. it needs us to be understanding. it needs to have mutuality. when u take, u shud be willing to give too. and being the elder doesnt mean u have to be up all the time. u shud put u self a bit down n lower so u wud be able to listen to what others want to say. then u'll get to consider so many things wisely. and finally  learn sumthing. sumthing priceless.

i'l be bz with mentoring on thursday. but i wud b bz with my Skype session too. need to see Benji at 1pm maybe. i will get another 2 students for skype. i cant imagine how my Thursday will be soon. i'l be bz! BUSY! BZ! BEE-ZIIIII! but despite of all the busy-ness and tirednes, i know im happy. happy that my time is fully occupied with good things. and i wont get time to think so far away like out of the Earth planet and be upset because of it. i hope i'll be fine. and i hope i'll be a succesful n helpful to all my tutees n mentee. till then. take care. :)

PARIS & ME - Mansell Intermediate School, Papakura, NZ.

:: Truth to be Faced ::

my new sem has started yesterday, with first class which was only a tutorial session -EDUC313. close to EDUC380 that i'v taken last sem. tough paper, i would say. 

it's a second chance. n  i tell myself, whenever we are given second chance, we should do the best of it. grab it, give the best we can.i'll be working so hard this sem, really. it is the last sem we have here. n will be sending back to Malaysia. another year to face books and lecturers, going for practicum and finally work for the country.

ah, i'm still in Auckland now.but... less than 4 months, i will be missing this place. really2 miss it. i can imagine the feeling now. it is SAD.

it is true now, to think that we cannot get everything that we wish to have. some area achievable, some are not. im not an empty vessel. im not useless. im not taking everything for granted. for most of time, i did think. i grow a potential in myself, for who should i be in the future. yet, these so many plans are might or might no be achievable or not. that is a question that left hanging. 

i have big dreams. but i dont know why suddenly i feel they are too far to reach. not gonna think more now, i shud be focusing on what are more important. 

for now, im not ready to leave NZ. but it is the truth that i have to face. and another truth to be faced will come soon. *sigh*

My 1st Face Painting :)

  Location : Mount Roskill, Auckland, NZ.

  Event : Auckland International Cultural Festival

i thanks Saifful so much for inviting me to this festival. it was a really nice event to be attended. i enjoyed so much time here with good food and performances from different countries. now i realised,  Auckland is an extreme multi-cultural region which has numerous types of ethnic living in it. just name it, and its not impossible to find them here. there were lots of performances, but i dont have all pics to put here. i got few videos but they are too heavy to upload. so lets see what we did there, hehe.

buddies : Saifful, Aten, Nisa', Zati & Fareha ( photographer)

my first twist potato. i like!! :)

My first face painting!! from Pakistan booth. NZD1 onlyyyy!! supa cheapp!!

... and this is how its look like! amazing me! ahaks!..

awesome!

:: I am a Teacher-to -be ::

as much as people in my own country value teaching profession as a noble job, there is still a group of people who will think 'teacher' is a low standard profession compared to engineer, doctor, lawyer, bussinessman/woman, etc..im not making any judgement on this matter, but  this is the truth that i had faced and heard of, those time, back in Malaysia. it even ever happened to me that this one person who actually has a close relationship with me has talked at my back, saying " eleh, study oversea pun, jadi cikgu sekolah rendah jugak!" ( it's pointless for me to be able to further my study abroad coz im gonna come back and work as a primary school teacher- only!). 

i am personally, never had dreamt this profession will be my future when i was still young and naive. coz when i was a school kid, all i dreamed was to  be a veterinarian coz i love animal so much. but ALLAH always knows what is the best for me, he didnt make all my dreams come true, but He chose the best one to be my destiny. And now, as days past by, i learnt more in valuing and appreciating my profession. if i was ever felt less proud of what im finally be before this, now im not. im gladly telling people that im gonna be a primary school teacher soon. My feeling towards this profession is just getting better and serene day by day. im sure this  feeling not only felt by us who are being trained to be an English teacher in oversea's environment n ways.  but it shud be always felt by any teacher-to-be.if what i have learnt now is what i can always do and practice to my future students, i believe i'l see beautiful days everyday, and so the students. i dont wanna think/imagine  about all the stressful teacher-life that all my friends in Malaysia have gone trought, coz i hope what ever happens soon, i'l can make it simple,easy and have lotsa benefit+fun for my students.

im just so sorry to think that our children have to sacrifice their sweet childhood times being struggled over the heavy books and strict schooling schedule tho that was also what i had gone through for 11 years. i am sometimes think, a new resolution must be brought up in Malaysian schooling system. students shouldn't need to focus on so many things which is somehow just out of their interests. like in New Zealand, kids choose their own subjects and curriculum activities.There are compulsory subjects  for them to enroll yet there are other things they can just choose based on their preference. for example, they can decide if they wanna be in dancing or drama class or swimming or music class or photographic or cooking class. those are all the cool stuff school can do for the students which actually giving opportunities for them to bring out their inner talent and life skills. i can see the balance-ness in their education. they got times to be serious in classroom as much as times to play and having fun, EVERYDAY! and the teacher-student relationship here is the most beautiful i ever feel and see, coz we ( student & teacher) can be friend at times, play together, talk and value each other's ideas but still pay respect to each other without being hindered by the age difference.

here, when i go to school and do activities with the kids, i always feel the environment is being so kind,nice and warm to me tho im just a foreigner, just someone who ain't belong to this place, a stranger. im seriously can feel it and it comes naturally and purely.Being a primary school teacher-to-be here, makes me feel young, happy,appreciated.it is a stressed-free condition every time im being surrounded by the kids. somehow, despite of  messiness and  unbalanced emotion  i experience from my personal stuff, i'l be totally ok just after seeing the kids coz they are forever like a buffer who can toss all the negative bad feeling i have in the simplest way. 

but, looking back to the reality in Malaysia, teachers of primary schools always feel burdened by forever-endless-works , stressed-out by the title 'teacher' that they have to carry anywhere they go and never can feel the fun side that teaching profession should actually offer them to have! it is even possible to cause them (or me or us  soon) to be older before the rite time and could be needed to act like a grumpy granny each day just make sure the rage and tense wont be confined inside of our self. so where's the beautiful days for the sweet young teachers like us?? :p

i know i can only simply put all my ramblings here but nothing will change. what will happen soon is what i have to face as a reality. i can dream of it and try to make it comes true, but i know i never can change everything in one blink. i have another 8 months to go in here, so i wish i'l doing lot more exciting and enjoyable stuff with the kiddos. and i will always dream to come back here again tho it is so hard to be true. and for now, once again, i love my profession and i proud to be a primary school teacher !! :D

:: special guest::

we had dinner together today. madam faziah and madam laila, me and friends, in our house, HUDSON BROWN. this will be the best memory of 2011. will mum n dad come to visit me too??  :)

|| Shopping Candid ||

i'v been busy the whole week so i had no time to write on my blog. started last Monday (7th March), i was so busy helping my lecturers (who came from Malaysia for working+visit here) to shop some food in Countdown. then the next day up till today, i was so bz with classes. i have lotsa works to do but i have successfully 'ignored' them coz laziness possessed me til i cant do anything. so today, after done with my Skype session, i didnt go back home straightaway. i went for a window shopping in Queen Street with Mira,my junior. i didnt really have planned to go there, but i just suddenly wanted to give myself a little leisure tho i shouldnt have done that. and i knew it, unplanned shopping is extremely dangerous. i'v spent over nzd100 (again??? T__T) to buy things that i shud'nt have bought today. errrr...i mean.. i wanted to buy them damn much but maybe, i can do it on another day ait? when i'm more sane than today..maybe??heee.but it's ok, thing happened and i got what i'v dreamt for so long now.

today's window shopping finally made me brought home a leather looked jacket from Glasson and random shopping in Countdown (i supposed to buy mushroom & tomato only) resulted me to lose nzd50+ in return to get awesome stuff for my cookies project ( i'l write bout this soon). it was actually cool to be able to see how were we when we did this crazy job, wasting away time and money over the thing that we can call as an unhealthy obsession ( window shopping). mira bought herself a new camera yesterday, so she couldn't be able to purposely let it left at home. she brought it along when we spent time in Queen Street and she snapped few pics of me and other things ( i asked her to snap pics for me to be frank :p) .  thus, these what we got. super candid pics!

i spent more than half an hour here, trying almost all types n colors of XS sized jackets till two ladies who were working at the shop came to ask us whether we are ok. and im glad that i got this budak kecik with me, so i finally made up my mind and chose a black jacket with hoodie with 3/4 sleeve ( it's cool fashion, said the lady)

this is at the later time when we were at Countdown supermarket, buying cooking stuff. i needed some food coloring to produce super cute and colorful cookies and i was so amazed to see those cute colorful colorings aligned beautifully on the shelves.

i had my list ready , just to make sure i wont be wasting my money over unnecessary things. but cake decoration stuff were so tempting to make me forget that unlisted things shudnt be taken out from their places and shudnt be put in the trundler. LOL!

Peckham pears was my fav but i noticed one new type of pear in the fruit rack. it was Honey Belle, so i gave it a try.

well i just really love shopping in Auckland, particularly in Countdown or any other similar kind of supermarket. my passion toward cooking and baking getting greater day by day and to be able to got all the stuff needed for this in cheaper price and higher availability is so so cool. can i just take this super market and bring it back to Malaysia with me if dreaming to stay here forever is too much? pretty pleaseeeee... \(^^)/

well, shopping+baking+cooking = im loving it!!