::punish me::

im receiving my punishment now..for  being a very annoying, irritating and bothersome someone. i hate this. i wont be such person if theres no reason. i hate diz. i wanna cry.huksssss. i hate the situation only, n feel like blaming myself thousands times. yet,still love the person. hmm.

~0RanGeVaNilla~

- Crazy-

i dont wanna care bout anything anymore after this if it is not related to me. im so tired. i need rest. i dont know what happens to me lately but my life is full with mess. i should not let this ruins me, i have lots of other things to think about and to take care of. 3 weeks before i can fly back to Malaysia. my feeling is just like 'im x sure'. *sigh*

the crazy decision that im gonna make,it seems hanging there. no decision. undecided. still confused and i didnt have time to think bout it. but..its even more crazy now coz i started to feel like it is 60% of NO and 40% YES. haha. anyway, lemme be straightforward. i'v been thinking of cancelling my plan to go back to Malaysia this summer holiday. i wanna stay here and work. so it means im gonna burn my tickets from Auckland-Gold Coast-Malaysia which cost me approximately NZD550. such a big amount if u convert it into MYR.haih~

im so sleepy. my head is spinning n im so dizzy. i need rest. i need rest.




~0RanGeVaNilla~

:: Spring photos are ready!!! yey! ::

Hidup ni kadang2 penuh kekeliruan kan?? susah nak tetapkan hati bile buat sesuatu tambah2 lgi bile buat keputusan. hari ni memang hari yg xbest. gi kelas pukul 1 and skip lecture langtech sebab terlebih tdo smpai terbngun lewat tuk sambung assigmnt educ223 yg kena hantar hri ni. teruk..teruk...

lepas tu gi kelas Esol kul 2pm, dapat balik kertas ujian hari tu. markah pon mengecewakan. sekali lagi..teruk..teruk. then termenung je, dalam hati marah diri sendiri sebab xjdi pandai. mula2 skor A je test n assgmnt ESOL, da pastu, merosot pulak. ni mesti masalah hati perasaan la ni smpai otak weng. teruk..teruk..

pastu paksa diri..dengar btol2 pe John ajar hari ni. padan muke,skrg bru nk focus smpai tembus whiteboard. naseb bek jugak la tenung whiteboard je,klo dok tenung John tu ,mau dia jatuh cnta ngan ak lelama kang kn. yelah,kata orang,dari mata turun ke hati.gituuhhh!! then jalan kaki blik dari kelas, tpi singgah Auckland City Library dulu dgn Shu tuk pulangkn buku, rase lapa nak mati. nak decide nak makan kat mane pon lame sgt. Nk gi Mid City kebab ke, Nak makan kt Donair ke sbb shu blom penah try lagi makan kt situ or nak gi Ayuthaya je sebab Shu lapa nasi. aihhhh! tgk, keliru nk buat keputusan. but then finally. kitorg decided nk bawak hti yg lara ni gi mentakedarah kat Ayuthaya tpi... singgah dlu Donair tuk bli chicken nibbles and chicken fillet burger.oh mak! gile tamak n kebulurnye,dgn duit pon tggl sekupang dua neh ,selera nk besar jgk kn? sampai dua2 kedai nk gi. layan je la. pe nak buat,hti tgah sedih mane la igt nk makan sikit2. (penipu gile, ptotnye xde selera makan kan??). pastu da mkn2 nsi, ayam n burger tu jdi bekal mkn tgh malam jgk sudahnye.

dok2 lepak kt bilik melayan lagu favorite yg bru ( sbb yg lame da bosan da,xnak dengar lgi), smbil tu berjiwang sesorang, pastu CIk ZATI ( mmg ak wajib sebut la name ko ni,,aihhhh!) pon mengumumkn secara rasmi, dia nk wt tour @ photo delivery dari bilik ke bilik. sementara tggu cik zati, sempat la lipat baju sepuloh dua puloh helai. 

pastu cik zati pon dtg la bwk pndrive dia n bgi gmbr2 photo shooting hari tu.Elok je zati balik, Shu pon datang. ohh,,bru tringat,,kitorang de food yg kena dihabiskn mlm ni. so sambil2 makan burger n ayam, tgk la pics yg diambil oleh cik zati @ photographer kite. pastu rase hppy tibe sbb gmbr2 nye sume superb kan?? excited! perut pon da makin kenyang. lagi la senang hti. da lupe da sedih kt kelas ESOL tadi. semangat berkobar2 nk upload pics tu tuk mummy n daddy tgk.hoyeeeyyyhhh!! maceh cik Zati sayang! muahx3!!

so berbalik pada intro tadi, hidup ni mmg mgelirukan kn??tadi sedih ,skrg da happy sgt pulak..heee.teruk!!! 

=D

by the way,here the pictures :

solo pose by me =)

 hello peeps!!

the girls~

me n tulip

cool~

my dream sakura path n finally i was there!

~0RanGeVaNilla~