every effort counts :)

despite of the hard times and hardship that i'm facing right now, with all the prayers i have prayed to ALLAH, He gives me a smile today.

..because ALLAH knows what is the best way to help me lift up my strength again. to have some determination and to leave this country with pride. and now i know, i have a lil bit of sweet memory in University of Auckland to be remembered. thank you ALLAH. 

feel like i'm the chosen one. 

alhamdulillah...

Received this in my mail this morning. Mum and Dad, I made it! :)

:: 2 PM porridge ::

Weekend ended pretty fast with awesome days to remember.  We ( the whole cohort) went to Kokako Lodge in Papakura for a camp. The rules were kinda loose as we were allowed to organise the camp on our own. it was like : u have money and so u can pay, and so u can own the place for a while, make some activities guided by some instructors, add on ur own activities and, thats it! u may leave when u done! all in all, we had : five activities provided by Kokako Lodge : High rope, chariot, Kiwi Fly, archery, and kayak and few activities by our own : honesty, guessing game, stand on the chair, passing egg,etc. we didnt manage to do kayaking coz the weather didnt allow us to. what a sad little story.

I'm back to reality. got a heap of works to do. ASSIGNMENT  is a big word now. three to complete at the moment and one test + one exam are waiting. I'm not in a good health condition really. these few days, i feel  a bit feverish. yesterday n today, i slept too much. slept in the evening and woke up after 12am. and today i was hungry when i woke up at 130am ++. i felt dizzy at the same time. i went down to get rice n fish that i kept in the fridge earlier, but the rice wasnt there. i was so frustrated. well, here goes a saying, '  a hungry man is an angry man',  so does a girl. so i was angry and  to lessen the annoyance, i put up a status on my fb about that. 

and there came a friend offering food to me. a plain porridge, he said. i dont mind really. the truth is i have no  rice left at all so that made me feeling more annoyed. the friend then sent the porridge to my house. it was more than enough, be it in quantity as well as the taste. but what counts more is the concern that a friend showed. 

somehow, we just need a little tiny thing to happen just to show us who the real friends are. maybe my example ain't that convincing but at least i know that i have a friend that wont let me starving all nite long before i can get other food on the next day. i should say Alhamdulillah. i accepted the losing rice as a fate for me tonight, like it didnt mean to be mine. but no one knows what ALLAH plans for us. i'm full now, feel more fresh n ready to continue doing my work. thank you ALLAH!

:: Finally ::

i think she has made a wise decision. that is the best for her. i wont blame her nor say she is selfish. she isn't. i understand her. even me myself hoping to escape from the reality that has been burdening me for all this while, so why shud she bear it? i guess God only wants to help her.

don't feel guilty sis. u are no wrong. ALLAH surely will protect u and grand u with happiness soon.

practicum, gym & mentoring - all in one

Practicum finished 4 days ago. i guess i only write about practicum when it has number 4 in it. :p
my previous post was about practicum and it was written 4 days after it began n now i talked bout it again, 4 days after it ended.


i'm so relieved that the practicum has ended and i finished it with a good feeling. i miss the school and kids now. we took picture together, me, Chander and the kids. but i couldnt put it in here coz their faces are no allowed to be put on the net.


i'm so much relieved coz finally, i have started going to gym again since 2 days ago. hmm. but, i dont manage to go today coz i just came back from mentoring. i got new mentee today. He is Jason. I would say he is a white, but he is not exactly a kiwi New Zealand. he is a mix of lotsa ethnic. from England to Philippines. He is a nice boy, funny and enjoy laughing a lot. he is good.

will put some pic of him later. till then. :))

:: HUDSONIANs' Open House ::

 Happy Eid Mubarak everyone from Gadis-gadis Hudson Brown!!

it was a very fantastic experience to be a host for our Hari Raya open house. i just wish ALLAH will bless this beautiful days of Syawal. without family members with us, we are trying our best to make this Hari Raya become the most memorable in our life. and yes, it is the most memorable one!

Gadis-gadis from Railway. Nirro, Fayizah and Vilo. enjoy the food girls?? we had lotsa food. can believe that we really have cooked those nasi lemak, bubur kacang hitam, nasi himpit n kuah kacang, cakes, laksa... etc. cant name all!

Railway Boys. look at Hafiz' s and Zaza's Hari Raya new hair style. Mohawk  Guys. but Muaz  was too loyal with his long natural straight n brownish hair.

MARA girls. on diet?

Shu with her sweetheart. untunglaaaa~ :p

AFIQ. came back for his graduation. happy becoming an engineer Mister! 

Look at those red cheeks of mine. there were stories behind it. first, i do have red cheeks since i came here (coz of the weather but never have been that red!) second, i'v actually blended the dried chilies  for cooking and poured the mixture into a bowl when few drops of it splashed on my face. then i wiped it off with my hand which also had few drops of chillies mixture. thanks Naz for being so clever and put a natural blusher on ur  own face! it was hot and hurting! GOOD JOB! TT____TT 

a lil bit of personal contribution. i made KEK BATIK for the guest. hope they like it.
:))

LALA! my gym partner. LALA said we shud take photos together coz she'll be missing me soon. ;'(

i'll be missing u too LALA

us, the HUDSONIANS with Sheryll. we gonna miss u Sheryll. the awesomest lecturer/tutor/mum i ever had found in this universe. take  care Sheryll. thanks for being with us. :')

Sheryll's . thanks you!

event ended at 11pm and i had like a crazy woman with red red cheeks. warghhhhhh!

Happy Eid Mubarak everyone n have a good night sleep!

:)

:: Beautiful Heart ::

i have started my practicum  since 4 days ago. all went well and i think i like my class where i  have been assigned to work in. The classroom teacher whose name is Chander, is a really nice person. she is Fijian, and she is really hardworking and committed. i think everyone in the school are really good to us , they welcome us really well hence we never feel like an outsider. i feel good to be at school tho i dont really have much time talking to most teachers. i didn't really teach this week, i just did some observation n helped Chander with few things that i think i am able to do. 

New Zealand school is always like the way it should be but this one is way cooler than other school. the teachers are cool, the students do not need to wear uniform, they have 3-times recess hour, and this school is really a good example of multicultural school.

from day to day, im getting used with the school, the class, the students, the system, the time management and the feeling of being a teacher. all staff in there are kind and nice. sometimes, i just wonder. how these people can be so kind, understanding n helpful? why can't people in Malaysia be like them?

this morning when i was waiting for the bus, i saw lotsa high school students waiting for the bus too. the were all Maori n pacific islander. the guys stood near to the point where the bus will stop, n me n Hasrul were at the back, almost buried in the crowd. as usual, we need to queue up before we can get into the bus. to my surprise, when the bus stopped, none of these Maori boys went into the bus. they instead backed off and let me go first. i wondered why they did that but without thinking too much, i just went up into the bus, tagged on my Hop Card and took a seat. after all the public people ( elderly, worker, etc) have had their seats, then the students came in- one by one, with their very own style. some were singing, some were teasing each other. finished taking all the passenger ,the bus then went on.at the next stop, the bus stopped and took few more passengers. there were no empty seat at that time but few Maori students  stood up from their seats and gave away the seats to the new passengers. then after that, every time the bus stopped to pick up more passengers, the other maori guys will give up their seats to the new comers and they wouldn't mind to stand up in the bus along the way to their school. i was so touched to see this. i just knew that students in new zealand really have a good attitude. The boys being a man, did a little thing yet means a lot. i bet all the older people here used to practice the same attitude when they were young so that is why the youngsters can follow it without any complaints. i remember when i went to Maori village last semester, Gazza told us that Maori people really protect their women. so this morning, i felt myself was one of their women and i felt special, so did the other people who were given a seat in the bus.

this evening , another one thing happened to me. the school finished at 3pm but as usual i'll talk to Chander about the school system and teaching stuff. today i stayed with her a bit longer coz she showed me how she used the curriculum booklet to plan her teaching. it was 1515pm when i went down from the classroom to go to staff room coz i wanted to use the nearby toilet before going back home. after that i went straightaway to the main door at office lobby to find my mates who actually have been waiting for me outside the school area. i walked pass by the information counter and i saw Mike. he greeted me and told that he saw my friends are waiting for me.  i thanked him for that and suddenly he  quickly went into the store and took out an umbrella. he said i can borrow his umbrella coz it was raining heavily outside. i told him i'll be fine and i wont need the umbrella coz we gonna take a bus and i wont get wet. but at the end, we really walked back home and luckily, we had enough umbrellas. Mike also a very nice person . really. he is rich with smile , has a sweet face , friendly , funny and really helpful. i think people here are really nice. i wish i am also one of these nice persons. 

i dont why.. but im feeling so sad to accept the truth that im gonna leave this country soon. :'(

::graupel::

new word for today.

i learned from Freemans Bay School's website.

GRAUPEL : Snow or a snowflake with some crystallized ice (forming soft ice pellets, not as hard as hail)

good nite peeps!