: Stay ::

"Stay"

Well it's good to hear your voice

I hope your doing fine

And if you ever wonder,

I'm lonely here tonight

Lost here in this moment and time keeps slipping by

And if I could have just one wish

I'd have you by my side

Oooh, oh I miss you

Oooh, oh I need you

And I love you more than I did before

And if today I don't see your face

Nothing's changed, no one can take your place

It gets harder everyday

Say you love me more than you did before

And I'm sorry it's this way

But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home

And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay

Well I try to live without you

The tears fall from my eyes

I'm alone and I feel empty

God I'm torn apart inside

I look up at the stars

Hoping your doing the same

Somehow I feel closer and I can hear you say

Oooh, oh I miss you

Oooh, oh I need you

And I love you more than I did before

And if today I don't see your face

Nothing's changed, no one can take your place

It gets harder everyday

Say you love me more than you did before

And I'm sorry that it's this way

But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home

And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay

Always stay

I never wanna lose you

And if I had to I would choose you

So stay, please always stay

You're the one that I hold onto

'Cause my heart would stop without you

And I love you more than I did before

And if today I don't see your face

Nothing's changed no one can take your place

It gets harder everyday

Say you love me more than you did before

And I'm sorry that it's this way

But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home

And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay

I'll always stay

And I love you more than I did before

And I'm sorry that it's this way

But I'm coming home I'll be coming home

And if you ask I will stay, I will stay

I will stay 

:: So little time left! ::

it is 10:35 am and i have already awaken for about an hour and half. BUT, still havent had my breakfast and what i do till now is lying on my bed, browsing through the Facebook and other websites -aimlessly. BORED and LAZY. i should actually, by now, have already taken shower or breakfast and is getting ready to go to Queen Street. Im planning to grab one external hard disk from Bond+Bond as my computer getting slower day by day. i have thousands of picture in my lappy, so that could be the reason why she refuses to work more efficiently now. and yes, also because my anti-virus has expired. sob~~

Im planning to start my "Cookies Project" today but apparently i couldn't have it started coz im pretty bz with few plans today. i wanna go to Queen Street before attending Munee and friend's house warming party (which they actually wrote as house cooling in the invitation, LOL) , then i might stay there till evening coz at night i'll be watching rugby match somewhere in Eden Park area with them and the guys. think the match will start at 730 so we might need to take the train at 530 pm. i have no idea what time the game will be finished coz this is my first time watching it.im sure i'l be home at nite so,yeah, i'l be tired. so, i wont be able to make/bake even a tiny little cookie.

i have lots and lots of plan in my mind now. too many. but i just have no idea how can i achieve  each of them. time constraint, financial concern...all become a prob. but i am trying hard to do the best in making my-8months-precious-times-in-Auckland becomes the best moments i would ever have in my life. 

• I am suddenly wanted to watch rugby coz i wanna experience it 
• I , without care bout others anymore, have booked a tix to Dolphin and Whale Safari ride
• I will go to Otago this July to be a supporter for Auckland teams in Bersatu Games tho i have little interest in sports. 
• I will, at anytime i think i will do it, have my own vacation to Aussie. just wait till i have enough money for that.

that's all so far. i'll update any other plans soon. hope i can really do all those things. God, i have soooo little time left. :((

p/s : i was actually came out with crazy idea last nite about something but apparently it was rejected and strongly disagreed by Mr.Carrot. thank u so much! he made me think! think!waaaaa~~

:: I am a Teacher-to -be ::

as much as people in my own country value teaching profession as a noble job, there is still a group of people who will think 'teacher' is a low standard profession compared to engineer, doctor, lawyer, bussinessman/woman, etc..im not making any judgement on this matter, but  this is the truth that i had faced and heard of, those time, back in Malaysia. it even ever happened to me that this one person who actually has a close relationship with me has talked at my back, saying " eleh, study oversea pun, jadi cikgu sekolah rendah jugak!" ( it's pointless for me to be able to further my study abroad coz im gonna come back and work as a primary school teacher- only!). 

i am personally, never had dreamt this profession will be my future when i was still young and naive. coz when i was a school kid, all i dreamed was to  be a veterinarian coz i love animal so much. but ALLAH always knows what is the best for me, he didnt make all my dreams come true, but He chose the best one to be my destiny. And now, as days past by, i learnt more in valuing and appreciating my profession. if i was ever felt less proud of what im finally be before this, now im not. im gladly telling people that im gonna be a primary school teacher soon. My feeling towards this profession is just getting better and serene day by day. im sure this  feeling not only felt by us who are being trained to be an English teacher in oversea's environment n ways.  but it shud be always felt by any teacher-to-be.if what i have learnt now is what i can always do and practice to my future students, i believe i'l see beautiful days everyday, and so the students. i dont wanna think/imagine  about all the stressful teacher-life that all my friends in Malaysia have gone trought, coz i hope what ever happens soon, i'l can make it simple,easy and have lotsa benefit+fun for my students.

im just so sorry to think that our children have to sacrifice their sweet childhood times being struggled over the heavy books and strict schooling schedule tho that was also what i had gone through for 11 years. i am sometimes think, a new resolution must be brought up in Malaysian schooling system. students shouldn't need to focus on so many things which is somehow just out of their interests. like in New Zealand, kids choose their own subjects and curriculum activities.There are compulsory subjects  for them to enroll yet there are other things they can just choose based on their preference. for example, they can decide if they wanna be in dancing or drama class or swimming or music class or photographic or cooking class. those are all the cool stuff school can do for the students which actually giving opportunities for them to bring out their inner talent and life skills. i can see the balance-ness in their education. they got times to be serious in classroom as much as times to play and having fun, EVERYDAY! and the teacher-student relationship here is the most beautiful i ever feel and see, coz we ( student & teacher) can be friend at times, play together, talk and value each other's ideas but still pay respect to each other without being hindered by the age difference.

here, when i go to school and do activities with the kids, i always feel the environment is being so kind,nice and warm to me tho im just a foreigner, just someone who ain't belong to this place, a stranger. im seriously can feel it and it comes naturally and purely.Being a primary school teacher-to-be here, makes me feel young, happy,appreciated.it is a stressed-free condition every time im being surrounded by the kids. somehow, despite of  messiness and  unbalanced emotion  i experience from my personal stuff, i'l be totally ok just after seeing the kids coz they are forever like a buffer who can toss all the negative bad feeling i have in the simplest way. 

but, looking back to the reality in Malaysia, teachers of primary schools always feel burdened by forever-endless-works , stressed-out by the title 'teacher' that they have to carry anywhere they go and never can feel the fun side that teaching profession should actually offer them to have! it is even possible to cause them (or me or us  soon) to be older before the rite time and could be needed to act like a grumpy granny each day just make sure the rage and tense wont be confined inside of our self. so where's the beautiful days for the sweet young teachers like us?? :p

i know i can only simply put all my ramblings here but nothing will change. what will happen soon is what i have to face as a reality. i can dream of it and try to make it comes true, but i know i never can change everything in one blink. i have another 8 months to go in here, so i wish i'l doing lot more exciting and enjoyable stuff with the kiddos. and i will always dream to come back here again tho it is so hard to be true. and for now, once again, i love my profession and i proud to be a primary school teacher !! :D

...

to be true, 

my heart aches.

:'(

:: special guest::

we had dinner together today. madam faziah and madam laila, me and friends, in our house, HUDSON BROWN. this will be the best memory of 2011. will mum n dad come to visit me too??  :)

:: Boring Saturday Evening ::

newspapers, TV and even Facebook or YouTube are currently busy reporting news about massive earthquake n tsunami in Japan. few countries were reminded and alarmed due to this sad news. My place here, also expected to be receiving a wave of tsunami which enough to scare me off till me n nisya decided to cancel our plan of spending afternoon and evening time at the beach. i was freaking bored so i asked Nisya if we can do something else. well, we love to do girls' stuff. instead of going to beach and swim, we finally did this. 

TAADAAA!

these are my collection, minus one. the black one belongs to Nisya, she got other colors too but i just forgot to take the pics of them from her phone.

initially i decided to use the peach nail color coz it looks natural. but finally i chose black coz it looked cool on Nisya's fingers. so i want too!!

i just wanted to give it a try. coloring the foot nails. it's cool. hehe. n i feel so emo and gothic. owh.

p/s : this also applicable for those who are granted with 'holiday'. ok girls?

well, mybe tomoro or later, i'l change the color. just for fun. :D

|| Shopping Candid ||

i'v been busy the whole week so i had no time to write on my blog. started last Monday (7th March), i was so busy helping my lecturers (who came from Malaysia for working+visit here) to shop some food in Countdown. then the next day up till today, i was so bz with classes. i have lotsa works to do but i have successfully 'ignored' them coz laziness possessed me til i cant do anything. so today, after done with my Skype session, i didnt go back home straightaway. i went for a window shopping in Queen Street with Mira,my junior. i didnt really have planned to go there, but i just suddenly wanted to give myself a little leisure tho i shouldnt have done that. and i knew it, unplanned shopping is extremely dangerous. i'v spent over nzd100 (again??? T__T) to buy things that i shud'nt have bought today. errrr...i mean.. i wanted to buy them damn much but maybe, i can do it on another day ait? when i'm more sane than today..maybe??heee.but it's ok, thing happened and i got what i'v dreamt for so long now.

today's window shopping finally made me brought home a leather looked jacket from Glasson and random shopping in Countdown (i supposed to buy mushroom & tomato only) resulted me to lose nzd50+ in return to get awesome stuff for my cookies project ( i'l write bout this soon). it was actually cool to be able to see how were we when we did this crazy job, wasting away time and money over the thing that we can call as an unhealthy obsession ( window shopping). mira bought herself a new camera yesterday, so she couldn't be able to purposely let it left at home. she brought it along when we spent time in Queen Street and she snapped few pics of me and other things ( i asked her to snap pics for me to be frank :p) .  thus, these what we got. super candid pics!

i spent more than half an hour here, trying almost all types n colors of XS sized jackets till two ladies who were working at the shop came to ask us whether we are ok. and im glad that i got this budak kecik with me, so i finally made up my mind and chose a black jacket with hoodie with 3/4 sleeve ( it's cool fashion, said the lady)

this is at the later time when we were at Countdown supermarket, buying cooking stuff. i needed some food coloring to produce super cute and colorful cookies and i was so amazed to see those cute colorful colorings aligned beautifully on the shelves.

i had my list ready , just to make sure i wont be wasting my money over unnecessary things. but cake decoration stuff were so tempting to make me forget that unlisted things shudnt be taken out from their places and shudnt be put in the trundler. LOL!

Peckham pears was my fav but i noticed one new type of pear in the fruit rack. it was Honey Belle, so i gave it a try.

well i just really love shopping in Auckland, particularly in Countdown or any other similar kind of supermarket. my passion toward cooking and baking getting greater day by day and to be able to got all the stuff needed for this in cheaper price and higher availability is so so cool. can i just take this super market and bring it back to Malaysia with me if dreaming to stay here forever is too much? pretty pleaseeeee... \(^^)/

well, shopping+baking+cooking = im loving it!!